Despite my downfalls, I remain hopeful.

I thought often after getting struck by that SUV last year that I wished I didn't make it. But as I got better and was able to leave the house, and see friends, it got easier to handle. I rarely think that way anymore. My pain will be with me for a very long time. Maybe lifelong, but I pray I will have the grace to handle it and an open heart to help others from it. Thanks to the people who have supported me over the past 13 months or so. I know I've made great strides, but I still could really use your help and encouragement. It's what helps me through the painful days. In the last week alone I have had 9 back spasms, lasting between 5 and 40 minutes each, almost consistent crippling pain in my leg from the neuropathy & suffered another concussion last weekend. It's difficult but I know I wasn't given more than I can handle. What I've learned is life is short & pain is real so it's massively important to love, help others & live a life you can be proud of.

Goodbye Laboratory 108, Hello Awesomesauce!

So a lot has changed in the last few weeks! I've started working a little bit again, despite still having major pain and muscle spasms. It's a fun job that allows me to organize and take care of people. Two of my favorite things! Plus I get to look at a lot of eye candy. ;) However, that's not what I opened this browser to talk about.
I recently moved out of my first apartment known as Laboratory 108. I started off with a really shitty roommate. She was the main bitch and never lifted a finger. Hence her extremely profane nickname, McCuntslut. I'm proud of that one! For the first several months, even though I was severely injured and limited from my accident, I was the only one who would take out trash, wash dishes or clean the shared living spaces. Luckily, I have great friends who were willing to help so I wouldn't hurt worse. McCuntslut would also play her music loudly, give me death stares and prance around like she owned the place. We went in 50/50, bitch can suck it. Between all of the drama and bullshit, I temporarily moved back in with my mom for a couple months, but still paid rent. F that. I was tired of her running the place and using my shit. That's when shit really hit the fan. I moved back in and made myself present! I stayed in the living room 24/7 which was fine by me. My back is better when I sleep on my couch anyways. I cooked all the time, I had guests over as much as possible. I lived how I would if I lived alone. Of course she retaliated, but the day she did, my mom happened to come over to pick me up for a doctors appointment for an EMG. (HOLY FUCKING PAINFUL!) Anyways, McCuntslut decided to turn her music on as LOUD as possible at 7:30am. My mom showed up at 9:45am and could hear it from the parking lot. Our apartment was on the back of the building, on the opposite from where she parked & all our windows were closed. It was that loud. Needless to say, my mom understood mine, and my neighbors frustration. She came in and walked up to McCuntslut (who had fucking headphones on!! What?!), pulled off her giant headphones and told her damn politely to turn it down & respect the neighbors. She responded that it was her apartment, not my moms and that she was getting back at me for waking her up at 12:30am that morning by being loud.....which is funny seeing as I was with the guy I had kind of been seeing all night because I was nervous about my looming EMG. I didn't get home until 5 or 5:30am. So bitch be crazy. Of course, I couldn't keep my mouth shut because I'm a typical girl. So I started defending myself and it turned into a giant screaming match. I'm so grateful my mom was there to referee. It got UGLY. Damn was I happy we fought though! She agreed to move the fuck out!!!! The next couple days as she moved her stuff out was a little awkward but I managed. Hell, she was leaving!
It was perfect timing too because my best friends lease expired the next week. So, BOOM! Insta-roommate. Having Justin move in was amazing. A lot of my stress was lifted by not needing to walk on eggshells and having help around the house. We joked, watched Netflix and had friends over. We got drunk at the bar watching football and came home to make pasta and cheese bread on Thanksgiving. He gave me Crown and two Crown glasses for Christmas. If I had a back spasm, he'd bring me my ice pack. It was great living there with a sane person. A real turn around experience!
That chapter is now closed. My cozy little two bedroom apartment with annoying upstairs neighbors has drawn to an end. Goodbye, Lab 108! Now I'm living in a house with 3 other people. I've yet to name this house but our WiFi name is Awesomesauce, so for now, "Hello, Awesomesauce."
Awesomesauce is off to a fun start. Our initials spell out 'Stag' so I'm sure that will be incorporated into the name. Well, because this is South Dakota, we went from shorts and dress weather on Sunday, and a giant ice storm on Tuesday. Wednesday was for surveying the hundreds of trees down across the city, blocking roads and knocking out power for well over 20,000 residents. Now today is Thursday and we woke up to well over 6 inches of snow, with at least another 4 expected. At my house, there are trees on my roof, and a tree fell on my car. I'm not too pissed, I drive a piece of shit. as long as it runs and the windows don't bust, I'll be fine lol. I am a little upset that it cracked my side mirror though. I drove it yesterday and boy was that strange. I should probably stop writing, I have a fuck ton of snow to help shovel. Keep it classy guys! I'll tell more stories later. :)

*Oh and if I ever have stupid spelling or grammar errors, please know that I write in a stream of consciousness and rarely re-read what I write before I post it.